Trying to Deal with Anger

Lord. I know there is anger in my heart. I should have felt this way a long time ago. I have been ripped, and pulled, and run over and it was all for love that I allowed myself to be mistreated. I think now that my love for Heidi has changed and I have really let go I am experiencing what has been happening to me for years though open eyes. I am furious that Heidi would try to take Arianna to Michigan and I am furious that she believes that it is in Arianna's best interest! It makes me so mad that she is being so utterly selfish. It burns me that I have to have conversations with my daughter about another man in her life yelling at her. It hurts that I have a daughter that is telling me that I lied, when that is something that I don't do. I've been able to talk to Arianna about it. I knew that I couldn't just say. No Arianna mommy is wrong. Because that is one of the main things that Arianna is experiencing. Mommy saying one thing, Larry saying something different, and me saying another thing. Thanks for giving me wisdom on how to handle that. Rather than tell her what to think I want to teach her how to think for herself. I told her to look at my life, to watch me, to see how I behave and if someone says something about me, regardless of who it is, I told her to compare that with what she knows about me and how she sees me behave.
Now, back to my anger. I keep reminding myself that Heidi is still a child of God and that He loves her just as much as he loves me, regardless of what she is doing. If I say anything bad about her or pull her down I am hurting His heart, Arianna's heart, and mine as well. So I am choosing to forgive, setting boundaries, and walking in love. Sometimes strong love that has to say no and stands up for what is right. I've also just been asking Him for His peace and joy and he has been pouring it into my heart. It is hard sometimes and I ache and cry. It is the most pain I have ever felt before and the most angry I have ever been at someone or at a situation. Please protect my heart Lord, give me your eyes, your wisdom, and may your light shine through me. Use this situation to bring your kingdom closer, to bring healing, and to bring joy and hope. I am excited about the future, about the things that I will learn about you and about your kingdom. I am excited to the joy that lies ahead and to separating myself from the harmful things done to me in the past. Learning from them, but laying them down at the foot of the cross.